My street is currently being torn up so that gas lines can be replaced. The guys arrive at 7 AM. hey start moving stuff around the street at 7:15 AM. Digging, jack hammering, and large vehicles start up at 8am.

Work goes until 4pm.

I often start recording an art video at 8am.

Thank goodness for noise cancellation on my mic and my camera.

Yet there are days when they don’t dig, grind, or jack hammer at all.

Occasionally they need access to my basement to check on the gas meter.

Change is disruptive.

Any change is disruptive.

Not all change is good.
Not all disruption is good.

But it can be good.

Disruption and change can lead to growth.

When I think of things that have led to the biggest moments of growth within my art it’s always occurred with change and disruption that has been incredibly uncomfortable. I’ve learned that the more uncomfortable the disruption and change has been has directly correlated with how massive the growth has been.

I’m currently relearning an old skill and it’s involving being organized again. I’ve had to put together a calendar, take photos of specific things, and create a plan for something that may not happen. I’m learning to allow myself some breathing room if it doesn’t happen.

And that is scary.

But knowing that on the other side of all this work (change and growth are WORK) I’ll have skills I take with me everywhere I go is a big part of what drives me forward.