Category Archives: Reflection

One Hundred and Two

I’ve completed a few hundred things challenges over the last few years. I’ve always done them in my own way. I know that I can’t and won’t complete a daily challenge or mostly ever be able to complete a monthly challenge. But when I do a challenge in my own way, I can get it done.

Yesterday I hit 102 in my own personal challenge- 300 Vehicles. 

I don’t think I wrote about it here, except in a post that I hid away in my drafts. I got some news that has forced me to speed up some of my “focus on art due to values journaling” plans. A direct result of this was to put in an application for a pop up gallery show at a local art gallery and art association. It’s a long story and I fear not one I can share here.

Anyway, when I was putting in the proposal for the show I had to decide on a number of images like those I was already making, that would look cool on the gallery wall and be impressive (to me.)

For whatever reason I settled on 300.

Why 300?
100 is a challenge that most of us can do.
200 is only double that and would look okay on the wall.

300 though, that’s kinda crazy. It’s not a bananas number like 1000. It’s enough that the small gallery will look filled and the walls will be packed.

It’s a stretch for me. I KNOW I can do 100. Can I do 300?

I hit 102 yesterday. 

To complete 300 I need to make 1.75 images a day.

I’m usually making 2 or 3 with some weekend days 5.

One weekend day I did 10!

The process for the images is simple- I tape postcards up to some sturdy chipboard, a little heavier than soda box carton. Each postcard is taped with a little bit of a thicker margin at the bottom, probably 3/8th of an inch. With the other 3 edges getting 3/16th of an inch. I then sketch on site, en plein air, each car. 

The media used for the sketch is a little different. I use colored pencils, mechanical colored pencils, and inktense colored pencils. The Koh-i-noor giconda magic colored pencil has been a real favorite. But inktense have been adding a lot of really nice base color to the images.

This is key to the process, the sketches are done QUICKLY. I try to spend no more than 5 to 10 minutes on each sketch. I am looking for vibes not realism. I’m looking at light and shadow.

When it comes down to it, I can less about the vehicle itself and more about the shape, shadow and light.

After I complete the sketch it gets shoved into my bag and I start another, if I have time.

Then I add color in studio. I’ve been playing around with a lot of different paints. Beam paints* have been giving me some really nice granulating effect that I REALLY adore. I also have been leaning back on my favorites Holbein paints.

After painting I let the images dry and then I layer on some more colored pencils, some Neocolor 1 or 2s, then some china marker, or Stabilo Woody. I’ve added in some ink too.

Over all I’m really liking how free I feel as I make these images. I also really like that they go from a sketch that feels rooted in realism to something even more loose and free.

Anyway, here is number 100:

*Beam paints are really quite amazing but a little pricey. That said I really like their plastic free aesthetic and devotion to less toxic practices. It also makes me REALLY want to attempt to make some of my own paints and inks.

Still Learning

May has been a doozy. I had to take an unscheduled break from videos and writing due to a family member being in the hospital. I have necessarily made that person a priority but whew, it really threw a wrench into my life and various plans.

So a quick recap:

I had planned on applying to a residency for this August. I wrote out the various pieces of the application and missed the deadline. Instead I will do my own DIY Residency. More on that in it’s own post.

I applied for, but have not heard back, for a show at a local gallery. I’m not sure when I’ll hear back or IF I’ll hear back. I’m going to reach out to the gallery and see.

Despite not hearing back from the gallery I am proceeding with completing the 300 Vehicles Project. If I don’t hear back from the gallery by the end of June I will list all 300 images here on Ko-Fi or Instagram.

I did manage to get the 3 pieces I had framed from the 300 Vehicles series to the Danvers Art Association May Show and one of the pieces won 3rd place for the mixed media (or miniatures) category! I can now say I’m a multi-award winning artist!*

My work place is finishing up the final touches on our big art show and event this week. I’m really thankful for having 2 3 day weekends in a row, one before and then one after the event. I usually get in 3 or 4 times my regular daily step count. It’s a bananas amount of work. But such a good time.

My art that I donated to the auction to raise money for work, sold for a larger sum than any of my pieces I’ve ever donated. What a nice boost and what a great way to help support the kids I work with. 

I started to make my own watercolors and gouache with foraged rocks. I made my first lake pigment from Red Maple leaves. The rock pigments are great the red maple pigment is… okay. 

​Many of these updates will get their own post at some point, but most especially the paint and pigment making. I’m fascinated by the process of breaking up rocks and adding gum arabic and making images with it. It’s been part of my residency proposals. Which I suppose is another update all on it’s own- I’m going to be applying for residencies for NEXT summer. It’s a commitment to ideas and plans and frankly a thing I struggle with. But it’s something I really really want.

*I won an Honorable Mention in the Bangor Daily News Political Cartoon contest in 1990. My cartoon was featured in a special insert in the newspaper. The cartoon was about book censorship… Go figure.

Quick note, I’m posting this concurrently on the blog instead of my usual month out wait. I’ll go back to regular month long wait between the post here for supporters and posting for free to the blog. I don’t know why I feel like it’s necessary to post this NOW vs wait, but I’m going forward with it.

Hot Takes

This was originally posted to my Ko-Fi page a month early for followers and supporters. If you would like to read these posts a month early, head over to my ko-fi account to follow me there.

A question about drawing portraits and getting better at drawing portraits popped up on my  threads feed. Appropriate right? Before I could respond, a response from an artist I respect responded with (I paraphrased here,) “You have to draw a portrait perfectly because the viewer will know when something is off.” Then she wrote (again paraphrasing,) “You need to draw from LIFE!”

​Those are two statement that I can not disagree with more. Let’s discuss that second statement, “You need to draw from life.” Woof, that’s a big one. Yeah, drawing from life is best but if you are just learning for funsies, it can be hard to draw from life.

I want to also point out that this artist is really coming from a place of privilege. They have a supportive spouse, live in a nice home, kids are out of the house, their spouse has a good job and she doesn’t hold down a full time job OTHER THAN BEING AN ARTIST.

Drawing from life means that you can go and draw or paint at the time of day when the light is right. I got out of work today and the sun was setting. If I had driven to a spot to paint, even if it were only 5 minutes away, I would have set up my easel or gotten out my tools and made art for 15 minutes. Some time but not a lot of time. Sometimes I’m able to make art on my way to work, but not always.

If it weren’t for photos I would never have made the progress I have made in make portraits.

Many artists take photo references and use them in the studio to supplement their sketches made on site. Some artists never make art on site, they just take pictures when they are out and about and then make their images in studio.

Yes, I like drawing from life but I also acknowledge that giving advice to someone asking for help like, “YOU MUST DRAW FROM LIFE” is garbage.

Artists can be such assholes sometimes.

​Now statement number 1: UNless you are attempting to draw in photorealism, you do not need to be perfect. People’s eyes will fill in the blanks. How does this person thing caricature works? You exaggerate and the viewer’s mind will make the connections. You get it close and the viewer’s mind will recognize that person.

​I drew a picture of one of my coworkers. To me, it looks NOTHING like him. It was off- the face too long, eyes not right, and just not right.

I had my sketchbook open to that page in my studio when my coworkers stopped by, she noticed the image and asked if it was from the meeting we were both in and pointed to the picture of our mutual coworker and said, “Did you SEE the faces he was making when so-and-so was speaking?” I knew in an instant that SHE recognized the coworker. Not because I was photorealistic, but because it looked ENOUGH like him that she filled in the blanks.

See also cartoons- my cartoon me image looks like me, not because it’s photo realistic but because I have enough details there for your brain to fill in my face over that cartoon face.

It’s why you can look at a smiley face and know it’s a representation of a human face smiling.

Anyway, you don’t have to draw perfect faces. You can draw wonky image that kinda look like a face. You can like wonky faces or you can say, “I want these to be a little more realistic.”

If you want to be more realistic, get drawing. Get a pencil and a sketchbook and start drawing. You need MILES on that pencil before you can get more realistic and feel good about it. Every drawing you make gets you closer to that realistic goal.

Also you don’t have to draw from life, ever if you don’t want to. Head over to instagram and ask your friends if you can draw from their selfies. Find an account like @earthsworld and draw, draw, draw. Then draw some more. (Don’t sell art made from someone’s insta post, that copyright violation!!!)((There are insta accounts that post images that you can use freely and make art for sale from. Same for facebook. There are loads of free reference sites. Find them and use them if you want to make art to sell.)

Drawing from photos is valid no matter what anyone says.

Sketchbook VS Sketchbook

One of the things I really love about sketchbooks (and art journals) is that they can really encompass anything and everything. It’s also a point of contention.

Part of me wants to take all the sketchbook videos and categorize them into neat little containers that explain exactly what they are:

a finished art sketchbook- an art book

an art journal- an emotional sketchbook

an UGLY* or WORKING sketchbook- a sketchbook with rough ideas

and so on.

Part of my response of “WE NEED TO PUT THESE IN NEAT CATEGORIES.” Is due to the fact that I see all these things are really different, and they are. There are vast differences between an art book, an art journal, and a working sketchbook. The art in each one can be vastly different. But also have similar qualities.

I also think that because we lump finished art books in with the greater label of SKETCHBOOK that it’s confusing for people who want to start a sketchbook. It also sets a bar that is perhaps a bit too high.

As humans we compare ourselves to one another and I know I compare my art to that of other people.

When I look at my sketches and doodles that are in preparation for other pieces of work and then compare it to a sketchbook with finished art pieces, well I feel like I can never match up.

“If that’s their sketch, how amazing is their finished piece?”

A finished art piece in a sketchbook isn’t a sketch, it’s a finished art piece done in book format. It’s sequential art. And that’s okay but it’s important to note that it is a FINISHED art piece and not a sketch.

Sketches are meant to be rough. They are meant to be thoughts on paper. Thoughts made physical as we work our way to a more finished art piece.

I am not suggesting that sketches don’t have vibrancy, or that they aren’t beautiful in their own right.

I write this as someone who sells their sketches. I know the power of that immediacy and that vibrant capture of a moment. We respond to the artist’s eye and viewpoint of that moment. Sketches are beautiful and art on their own.

But it’s hard to compare a rough working sketch to a finished piece of art in a sketchbook.

(Going off of this, I think Urban Sketching is really Urban en Plein Air. A great deal of what we do in urban sketching is create finished art works in sketchbook format.)

I don’t know if there is a true resolution to this. Instead when I watch a video or look at an instagram of another sketchbook flip through I note to myself if I think this sketchbook is a finished art book, an art journal, or a working ugly sketchbook. I note this and then think about how my personal classification of these various sketchbooks helps me compare myself less to perfect pictures of art.

(It also helps me when I talk to the kids I work with about their sketchbooks. I talk to them about how we’re creating and using a working sketchbook, and how it’s going to have thumbnail sketches, color studies, and notes about our work.)

*I’m going to note here that I FUCKING hate the term UGLY sketchbook. But it seems to be what is being used here in social media land so I’ll stick with it and SEETHE.

Results of Values Journaling

One of the main goals I mined from my values journaling session was that I really want to focus on making my own art for 2025.

Somewhere in my research for values journaling someone suggested (I really should do better at keeping notes) that you ask yourself the question, “When was I the most happy?” When I applied that to thinking about art and making art, I immediately thought to AJ Ning and the summer I paid my bills with art.

I believe I told the story here before, but back in the summer of 2002 I had moved home, had a disastrous break up, well 2*, and decided to focus on me. I had a summer where I didn’t have a full time job and I would wake up in the morning, drive to a scenic spot, hike, draw and paint. My pieces ranged from little 5×7 inch drawings and watercolors to large 22×30 inch watercolors and gouache pieces. There were a few small desk top sized driftwood sculptures too. 

All this went up on eBay and sold from anywhere from 10 cents to $125. $125 was decent money in 2002. It was close to half my rent for the month. 

Anyway, back then I looked at the landscapes and drawings of lighthouses as selling out a bit, no matter how much I enjoyed making them. Landscapes sold to tourists felt like selling out.

Today I see landscapes as an exploration of my space in the world. I always enjoyed painting and drawing them, but now I’ve embraced landscapes and portraits and everything else as something that I can just enjoy making. I’ve released the idea of “selling out” as a judgement I made on myself and made by others onto myself. It was a juvenile judgement.

From this goal, to focus on making my own art, I’ve decided that I want to apply for grants and artist residencies. In my research I realize that I’m late to the party when it comes to residencies and grants for this summer. I’ve missed most deadlines for residencies that occur during the time I can take vacation this summer, and likely will have to schedule into the following summer. Though summer 2026 will be more flexible if I can find things out in advance. My summer schedule at the DayJob is flexible.

It’s an interesting thing, applying for grants and residencies as I approach 50. When I graduated from my undergrad program I was told I should apply for residencies, but I saw application fees and also the various fees associated with the residencies. The information I had access to didn’t show any residencies that paid the artists, and many do. Many just cover housing. If I had done more research I’d have found what I’ve found now. And that are a lot of grants and residencies that cover expenses of the residencies. There are some that make sure the artist can even eat!

Anyway, if I can’t find a residency for this summer, I’m going to see if I can get a grant and craft my own. Maybe it’ll be a residency on my bike- I’ll ride my bike places and paint and draw there. Maybe camp. We’ll see what happens. All I know is that like last summer I want to immerse myself in making art then set about having a show.

*It turned out that my now wife and I just needed a break from one another to grow the f*ck up and be a good couple.

Technical Skills and Style and Mixed Media

I consider myself a mixed media artist. I went to school to be an art teacher and an art therapist. The skilled learned were broad spectrum and about all media. I didn’t have to be super skilled in all of them, but I needed to understand them well enough. I missed out on pottery.

In all honesty I think learning all the media I did in high school, college and grad school suited the way my brain works. ADHD and all that.

I consider myself proficient in print making, specifically relief and dry point as well as drawing with a variety of materials and finally watercolors. Though I suspect some people who watch my watercolor videos would debate me on that.*

That said I enjoy learning about materials. I think changing up what I draw and paint with on occasion keeps my brain active and pushes me to try harder.

But what really get my artistic groove going is mixing media. Watercolors with pencils and pens and collage and gouache and acrylic and slapping all that into a sketchbook/journal.

I like it when I take the rules of a media and break them. Continue reading

Getting Better at Art

I mentioned in a previous post that I’d explore the topic of what it means to “get better at art.”

Each of us has a different definition of what better means.

I believe it helps to define what better means. If I look at the art I’m making and I’m thinking, “I can do that better. ” Or, “I don’t like that.” I need to figure out why I don’t like the piece or why I think it needs to be better.

For instance, I have felt like my landscapes were off, and it was easy for me to look at them and label them as stiff and boring. Around 15 years ago I looked at my portraits and thought, “I’d like to do those better.” Initially with portraits that meant doing them realistically. Then I realized I wanted them to be more about the personalities than fully realistic. Vibes not realism. So I set about getting looser with my portraits.

As for my landscapes I’m making a lot of landscapes. I’m forcing myself to look at values and contrast and I’m making myself work loose.

I’m using chunky materials on toned papers and attempting to be loose. I’m looking at the values. I’m making values studies. I’m trying to work fast. I’m trying to get the idea down and then go back and add in more contrast and value. I’m worrying less about details and more about the vibe of the landscapes.

In just a week of concentrated study my landscapes have gotten better. (IMO)

It’s back to basics but it is also defining what I mean by getting better. I could have just made a few dozen landscapes without a goal in mind, but without that goal I flounder. Without a goal I make image after image and get frustrated about why my art isn’t getting to where I want it to be. I go in circles.

With a goal I can try different things with different materials.

Currently I’m feeling better about my landscapes in the kid’s tempera sticks but I attempted a landscape in watercolors and it was stiff and lacked the fun of the landscapes in the kid’s tempera sticks. So my new goal is to work on landscapes in watercolors but to explore making them feel loose and spontaneous and fun.

The importance of Support and NOW

My grandfather told me he’d always wanted to be an artist, specifically an oil painter, but as a poor kid from a poor family he joined the Coast Guard. Mostly because it was the only branch of the military where he could guarantee that he would never get on a plane. This was back in the late 40’s so I guess that makes sense. 

He served until he was injured falling from a ladder. I’m not sure exactly what happened with the injury but I do know it hurt his back and his hip. He had a lump that he was told was scar tissue. In the early 90s the lump grew and started to be painful. The doctor’s did a biopsy and found that it was still benign and just scar tissue but in the exams they found that he had lung cancer.

He died at 67, never having picked up a brush.

This has always been a driving force behind my art making and encouraging others to make art. Part of me wonders what kind of art my grandfather would have made, had he ever gotten the encouragement to pick up a brush. Especially if his family had the means to encourage him to pick up a brush.

I imagine him making paintings of forests and fields, things that celebrate the home and life he had made. Maybe he would have painted cars and trucks- the things he repaired as part of his job as one of the head members of the maintenance team at the local University.

I wonder. 

One of the big things I wonder about is what would happen if we were all given support around the things we love and care about? I’m thinking about Karen Faulkner.*

If you don’t know the story, Karen Faulkner is a Harvard grad venture capitalist who started to ride a bike for enjoyment and exercise in 2017. She made the US Olympic team as a replacement. She quit her venture capital job in 2021 to ride full time. She won gold in the women’s olympic cycling event at 31.

There’s a lot to unpack here. She went to Harvard, most of the reports I read failed to mention that she rowed for Harvard and holds rowing records. So she was already fit. She was a venture capitalist** so she made a fair amount of money.

What does this have to do with art?

Nothing really, but it goes to show that if you have support and systems and money you can quit your job and follow your dreams.

Many of the kids I work with are born into poverty and part of where I work, works to break the cycle of poverty through gaining scholarships and other financial help to send them to college.

I’ve been wondering how I can better support the people in my life and the people reading this with their art. How do we break generational poverty thinking and encourage more art making for art’s sake.

Throughout my life I’ve seen art and art making as an essential form of communication that reaches across boundaries and increases connection between people with differences. Art communicates. Art connects. Art heals.

Imagine if we all had just a little bit of the money a venture capitalist has and the art that would be made.

*forgive me for delving a little into my other love- cycling. I don’t follow races or even road cycling, but this story captured my interest.

**I have some serious ICK issues with venture capital. Look what they have done to NING and other companies.

links:

Olympic reporting

NBC Reporting

When the Internet Began

Remember when the internet was a collection of people doing interesting things and sharing them? It was always a little weird and fun. Now I sometimes feel like the internet is a bit of a cesspool of hate and fear mongering. In an effort of rejuvinating the weird and fun I present to you these little videos:
https://vimeo.com/darenjannace/10946?ref=tw-share 

Worth the effort to click that link. A guy made a video by animating 30 post it notes a day for one year. 30 frames= 1 second. Amazing and just under 7 minutes long. Fun. Weird. Old school internet.

Back in the day I used to troll EDC groups with my EDC Spork*. Some hated me, some loved me. This guy made a great video about a tactical wooden spoon. I love the send up of tactical EDC culture. Hilarious.

*I really need to start to carry my spork again. I’ve gotten out of the habit since my workplace has 2 full kitchens for use, but often I just use disposable stuff available from the places where I often buy my lunch. UGH.

Drawing from Life Informs the Imagination

I don’t design my pages. It has never been a thing that I do. I just draw and fit it to the page, occasionally I’ll put some text into a bare area and call it good. In a way the lack of design is design.

As I was working on a video about drawing cartoon faces I stated (paraphrasing here) that when I create a cartoon face I am drawing on all the experience I have drawing faces from photos and life. 

​The kids I work with complain about drawing from life, arguing that they need to work on their manga style rather than drawing stuff from life. They hate to hear that all the greats drew and still draw from life on the regular. Every time we put pen(cil) to paper it changes and alters our ability to render for the better.*

I did a vibey realistic drawing of a face today with pen and ink wash, a favorite technique. Then I went on to draw 7 different version of him with a few different materials. It was and is a great exercise in character design but also in seeing exactly how drawing real but with a focus on vibes and from “life” really informs my cartoon faces. Those characters can feel more REAL because I draw vibey realism.

I tested it with a fude nib, 2 types of gel pen, and a brush pen. Each gives a different feel to the cartoon face. 

As a further test I’m definitely going to test this idea out with the drawing tablet in Krita.

​* We can discuss what I mean by better in a future post.